September 2018 This month has been one of the hardest ever. In my journey to the new me and also the real me, I have had a mentor, friend, and guide. He was also my Dom, my Sir, my Daddy. Started with Sir, and then as I grew and progressed I understood and accepted the … Continue reading What Matters Most
Last week was important. All days are important and should be lived to the fullest but last week was my fifth attempt at a very important test in my full-time career. I scheduled it for Thursday morning and that afternoon I was leaving for a semi-relaxing weekend to the beach with a friend to visit … Continue reading Renewed
I struggle with a title "mature". I don't feel old, so calling myself old doesn't feel right. Calling myself mature reminds me of how people explain women that are older so basically the same thing. It sucks really. I am in my early 50's. They say that 50 is the new 40 but to be … Continue reading Mature women like sex too!
This concept has always confused me. I could never understand why anyone, male or female, would consent to being humiliated. This is not a judgement. It is a personal feeling. All my life I have been made fun of. I was too fat, to short, the ugly friend. I was in the six grade with … Continue reading Humiliation
Much like I constantly redecorate the rooms in my house and clean like crazy when I have a lot of stuff going on and running through my mind, I decided to clean up the blog... which resulted in changing everything. I've thought a lot about the name on this blog. I created it with Sir … Continue reading New Look
I have always admired those people (men and women of any orientation) that can feel sexy on demand. I use to think it was easy for some, most actually, but time has taught me that this isn't so. In all fairness to myself it has been a hellish month. This weekend marks a month since … Continue reading Forcing sexy
I am on a place in my life where everything is scary, and done alone. Tonight I am heading in to dance lesson by myself. After will be a group social event. My skin is crawling. I'm shaking. I want to leave. But I showered and shaved so in I go. On goes the mask. … Continue reading Stepping out
I was at work today and had all these cool, sexy thoughts going through my brain. Lately, I have had very little thoughts that were anything other depressing and sad. I stopped writing because I was starting to annoy myself with the sadness. But today was different. They weren't thoughts of my past experiences with … Continue reading Pen and paper
She slowly accepted the truth. What she thought was the truth, guessed to be the truth. He said to move on that he was done. She is a follower of rules. His rules. She always followed and obeyed his wishes. This would not be any different. She responded to a text from someone who was … Continue reading This would not be any Different
If you’re a parent, today is a day to think about how you make your D/s work while raising kids. And if you’re not a parent yet, imagine how you might handle things if you have children. This is funny to me. When my daughter was growing up I was very vanilla. Her dad and … Continue reading Parenting – How do you make your D/s work while raising kids?