It is within me. Sleepless nights, brain on overdrive, everything tried, tossing and turning, where are the peace and calm?
It is within me. Hard to find at times, but I can reach it. Fingers inserted into my pussy to explore and exhaust my physical self. If I exhaust myself physically, perhaps my mind will rest.
Some count sheep, and some take sedatives. I reach for my sole through the means I have learned what works best. Time for myself. Time to get lost. I am searching for peace and searching for release.
I am tired of waiting for someone else to make it better. No need for anyone else. Would anyone else help anyway? No, they would not. I am here for myself, and I will take advantage of myself before anyone else has the chance. I am in control. Now and for now on, I am in control.
I will not underestimate myself. I will appreciate what I have to offer. I will enjoy the feelings and pleasure I can give myself. I will undo the knots and tangles left by others and relax one muscle at a time. Then tense them up and tie them up again by my design.
I have to remind myself always; it is within me.