Double Penetration

Double penetration is something that I  fantasized about.  In the porn I watch to get off there is usually some form of DP or gang sex represented.  When I first started thinking about it I felt bad for admitting that it excited me.  I wasn’t sure if I wanted the experience with two men or just wanted to experience how it would feel to be filled and full of something.  I have a lot of fantasies that I like to watch but don’t want to do.  Or maybe I just don’t know if I want to or not.

With my ex – we did fuck with butt plugs in so I have experienced the feeling of being full.  Anal sex is a weird topic for me.  I enjoy it but it takes time for me to get ready for it.  Having issues around the mess of it all is usually what halts me requesting it.  I have physical issues in that area that make certain times not acceptable.  My ex was aware of these things and we worked around those issues.  He wasn’t bothered by mess and helped me become okay with it.  Or more okay with it.

I like being full.  I like the feeling of being fucked and feeling the friction between the thin lining.  Double penetration by my definition falls into the category of using toys to accomplish the feeling that I want and enjoy.  Could I be with two men and accept this?  I don’t know.  After all that is the porn, I tend to watch, but I am not sure if I would feel comfortable consenting to it.  Again, everything for me falls to trust these days and I don’t have a lot of that.

Am I jealous of those who accept double penetration and can do it on a regular? 

Maybe.  To be honest, right now I am jealous of anyone having regular sex the way they want it and when they want it!  Anal sex alone is something that would take more than a minute for me to feel comfortable with, with anyone.  Adding that to possibly two people?  Not sure where I am with that.  My ex and I planned (well he planned) one night and even the planning and prepping for it he made sexy. I wore two different size plugs and then we took the larger one out.  He used lube and fucked my ass and it was amazing.  That made me want double penetration even more.  Sadly, we broke up before we could explore it further.

So, it is on the radar for the future.  Until then, with only myself to guide me through experiences, I play alone with toys for the sensation of double penetration. Toys are wonderful for this and what I have tried, when I can physically try I have enjoyed.

I am still not sure if it is just the feeling of being full or if the experience with one man and toys or two men would be equally as exciting and pleasing.  I’m still trying to figure out.

everydamndayinjune

 

 

 

3 thoughts on “Double Penetration

  1. Totally hear you on the trust front. That would be a huge issue for me. Oddly the spur of the moment thing worked for me but in just felt right at the time but doing it again finding the right two people would be a huge factor for me

    Mollyx

    1. I agree, sometimes everything feels right and you can be comfortable rolling with it. Those are not times to pass up for sure!

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