Today was a no work day. In order to distract my mind from the lack of money being made today, I decided to be productive. I cut the lawn, trim around the house swept and blew the grass clippings and cleaned up around the patio. After that, I cleaned up the kitchen, gathered the recycling, called Mom to check in. Being outside feels good and I have gotten some interesting tan lines with the patio and yard work.
I was exhausted. Sitting on the porch talking to Mom the breeze was amazing, there was no humidity. The yard looked nice. I am not a fan of gardening (because I suck at it) but I don’t mind taking care of the lawn. It is always nice when it is done. I feel the same way about vacuuming. Weird I know.
After talking with Mom I went inside, grabbed a beer, changed my close and headed to the back yard. I had earned some down time to enjoy this beautiful day. It isn’t my fault that on a day I couldn’t get work, the universe decided we would have a great day with great weather.
Thankful I took the time to put the new lounger together I settled in the sun with my music, my beer, and my little dog by my side. Time to work on the tan lines.
Laying still has been a problem for me lately. I am constantly restless and telling myself I should be doing something. If all the obvious things are done (cleaning, straightening, rearranging furniture) I create things. This has been a plus for my unfinished projects and all those things I have been trying to accomplish. However, I am not used to being this restless during the day. At night it comes and goes but during the day I can usually slow my mind or redirect it some ways.
I have always liked tan lines. Silly I know but again, there is an accomplishment in them. In the past, I have worked hard on them. Making sure they are clear and even. Spending hours in the sun laying still. There were times I set timers to know when to turn over so that the front and back of my body would be evenly matched.
As I got older, I lessened the concentration on this. Quite frankly, due to my weight and my bust size, it was uncomfortable to lay on my stomach, so I laid on my back all the time. The back of my legs was always lighter than the front. At some point, I stopped caring. After all, that is what bronzer is for!
Doing the patio and yard work has felt good. I had underestimated the cloudy days and had a racer back tan line and tank top tan lines. Not pleased that they were different and uneven I was frustrated. Knowing they will even out eventually, I am not as concerned as I would have been back in the day.
Today was about rewarding myself for a lot of hard work.
I hadn’t been concentrating on tan lines. I had been working on the patio and the yard. So, today was for tan lines. Today I plopped my ass on a chair, stretched out and let the sun do its best. Or worse depending on how much you love your skin.
I know this is bad for me. I have always known it was bad for me. Taking most precautions, sunscreen, cover the hair and face. Well, most of the time I cover my face. I have a little bit of Cherokee in me so I do tan really well. However, precautions are necessary no matter your skin type.
I only stayed out for an hour and a half. Of course, I was restless and I got a phone call so I gave up and came inside. The plan was to head to Mom’s tonight so I showered quickly, spent some time chatting with my daughter and then headed out the door. Took care of the things that Mom needed and came home.
Getting ready for bed I went to the bathroom and faced the mirror. Holy shit! The tan lines are definitely clear and noticeable. My face is a little pink (probably more than it should be) but I like having a little color. I know some think it is awful, but I love having a tan and being in the warm weather. For all my hard work, I am pleased with my reward.
Yes, there is that stomach again, but I see the tan lines first!