How many chapters is a good amount for a book? Tewnty? Thirty? I guess it’s based on the information or story you are trying to tell . Then how many chapters in a lifetime is a good amount?
I break my life down in chapters . When something ends I always say it is the end of a chapter to prepare myself for the next . My life has many chapters so far and I am about to start another one . Some of the chapters blend smoothly into the next . Some have abrupt ends and startling beginnings.
No matter the reason the change and shift to the next chapter fills me with anxiety and worry . This chapter is no different. I wish I could be excited. I wish I could look forward positively and with hope and enthusiasium. I fear the newness as an unsure change.
So I “cowgirl up” and all the plans I had will wait. All the hopes I had will fade. I will keep my mask on and move through the day as the positive person the world thinks I am. And the fear will stay behind the mask . Until I am alone.
On to the next chapter!